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Thursday, November 8, 2018

2018/2019 Concert Wishlist

I was comparing my Concert Wishlists from 2011 and 2013, and I realized that I went to soooo many concerts in 2013 and 2014! What a blessing.

There're some bands that I won't ever get sick of seeing; they're just perpetually on the list. And sigh, there are some who will never come. Almost bucket list status, man. When I finally save up enough to go to the States for a holiday, will they even still be a band, much less touring?

Bands I want to see again (in no particular order):

  1. Taking Back Sunday (I'm seeing them in 2019!!!!!!)
  2. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (just for nostalgia's sake)
  3. Saosin (Anthony Green rejoined!!)
  4. Foo Fighters (though they just came in 2017 but I don't mind seeing them again for sure)
  5. Sodagreen (on hiatus)
  6. Mayday (will never tire of them but please no more for the next couple years)

Bands I've never seen and want to see (in no particular order):

  1. The Reign of Kindo
  2. Florence + The Machine
  3. Shinedown
  4. Relient K
  5. There For Tomorrow/AFTRHR (recently realized that they renamed themselves + only left with 2 members)
  6. 5566 (POSSIBLE!!!!)

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

This year is shaping up to be a pretty eventful one. I've just booked plane tickets on my own for the first time in my life (I've only been on a plane twice, with family both times). And it's with 2 colleagues that I've only known for two months plus! Going to Krabi in August without taking leave feels awesome, y'all.

I haven't told my dad yet though. Oops.

Here's a list of upcoming events that I'm going for this year:

Hillsong United No Other Name Tour, April 12
Planetshakers, July 31
Kodaline, August 13

Yong Hwa is coming as well, but his tickets are too expensive and frankly I prefer CNBLUE even though I looove Yong Hwa.

I'm quite certain Sodagreen will be coming again, and not to mention other bands. I just missed Incubus on March 9, but here's to hoping they'll be back soon and that I won't be broke like this time.

Looking back on my previous Concert wishlist, I realized that indeed many have been fulfilled. Taking Back Sunday, Incubus (although I didn't go), Sodagreen, Mayday Parade (didn't go either). Bastille, who is on my newer mental wishlist, came and went as well. Then I found out today that There For Tomorrow had disbanded. Sigh. I pray that they will get back together in the future and be better than ever and come to Singapore already.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Being at this job requires me to do a lot of research and reading, especially reading about positive mindsets and health information.

I've just read something on an e-book called The Millionaire's Brain, and it rang so true that I had to write it here, just for reference's sake.

It states that in order to rewire your brain to rid it of negative associations whenever money is mentioned, you need to tell yourself that you are "abundant in wealth." With every dollar you spend, more will come back to you.

The reason why this statement spoke to me was because I've recently been feeling that every time I thought about my finances. Ever since being shown the truth of God, I've learnt that He will provide for me no matter what. So I've stopped worrying about having less than a certain amount in my bank account like I always used to.

If you've known me since years ago, you would know that I used to always complain about my money troubles, wondering if I could make it till the end of the month with my measly pay and mega bills and responsibilities. And yet I still couldn't stop spending, so my bank balance depleted drastically just two weeks into a new month every time.

Now I've begun to let go of my financial situation and leaving it up to God. It doesn't matter if you're a free-thinker or if you have a different belief system; the core value is the same. Just let go of your worries. Sure, you can scrimp a little here and there, maybe not drink Starbucks every week and cut down on that post-lunch yogurt. But don't beat yourself up over every little thing you spend on, stop focusing on your diminishing bank balance.

I'm not saying to just squander all your money away without regard to your bank account, of course. What I mean is to feel okay about spending on necessary stuff. A movie once in a while won't really hurt that much, but weekly visits to cafes are probably not the best idea until you achieve financial stability.

And instead of thinking about that low balance in your account, focus on the multiple blessings in your life currently. Awesome friends, a sweet family, that charming auntie from the chicken rice stall, or even the nice stranger who held the lift door for you. Heck, you're alive, you have a roof over your head, Internet connection, able limbs and your five major senses. Shouldn't that be good enough to put a smile on your face? Money is nothing compared.

This doesn't mean that I'm perfectly worry-free financially, of course. I do acknowledge that my bank balance isn't where I want it to be just yet, but I also know that it will all be replenished eventually (at the end of the month). Why worry?

Even if you don't have an income right now, that's no cause for worry. It should scare you, but you shouldn't let that fear turn you into a worrisome, negative person. Be positive, and trust that it will all come to you soon enough. Positivity attracts more positivity!

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Amazeballs

Do you ever get that feeling like, "OMG he likes [insert forgotten old movie/weird food flavor/obscure band] too? We're perfect for each other!!"

I get that every once in a while because a) I am easily excitable; b) I like a lot of things in general.

Sometimes I feel pangs of wistfulness as I scroll through news feeds on social media platforms, and realize that I share certain shockingly specific interests with some people. The wistful part is that we aren't closer friends but just casual acquaintances. We could be so much more!!!!

The similarities are so mind-blowingly coincidental that I can't help but proclaim us soulmates/BFFs in my head. But of course, life doesn't really work that way even though I try really hard to make it so.

I guess it goes to show how mysteriously God works. Because why Lord, why?

It's not to contradict my previous post about being content with where I am and not being in a relationship - I'm serious about that for sure. But I just can't resist wondering why these people aren't the one I'm waiting for.

Perhaps it's all about timing, perhaps it just isn't. Whatever it is, I've put my faith in Him and am learning not to worry. It's just jarring to know that we are still nothing more than casual hi-bye friends despite these coincidences. Amazing, maybe.

Life is just full of surprises. (God, too.)

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Thankful

It's hilarious sometimes when I read through my older posts and realize the massive change of content. Just a few months back I'd been fawning over some guy; a few weeks before that I'd been infatuated with another one; for the past few years there's always been some guy or other.

But after finding God, there's been no rush. No more desperately hoping for some guy to sweep me off my feet.

The contrast of my mindsets then and now is pretty jarring. I mean, I still want someone to love and to hold till death do us part, but I don't need it right now. Right now I get to experience my walk with my Father on my own, and to improve myself as a person before I commit myself to a relationship. I have faith that there's someone planned for me, and that I will meet him when the time is right. Or maybe I've already met him. We'll never know till we know.

Meanwhile I'm just trying to figure out my place in this vast world just like everybody else. Career paths to embark on, friendships to forge, family members to love, music to discover, concerts to attend, books to read, films and shows to digest, cafes to hop; the list is endless. What's a girl to do except to do it all and enjoy the ride?

Now I'm just grateful for all the friends and family that add color to my everyday life.

Just as I'm ending this post at 6am on the first day of 2015, I hear my dad closing the noisy gate of our house. I throw my phone on the bed, rush out of my room and fling open the wooden door to see my dad.

He gets a shock at my sudden appearance in the wee hours of the morning, but as I say, "Happy new year, Pa," you can see a hint of a smile on his weary face.

Greeting my dad at the door as he leaves for another day at work, then going back to my room to finish up a blog post and submitting myself to a good morning's sleep (and probably afternoon). What is this, if not the best way to end a countdown to a new year?

Goodnight, good morning, and happy new year.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Whenever people first find out that my mom is no longer with me, their reaction is usually one of sympathy, or even empathy. It used to be a sort of consolation for me, like "Oh, woe is me, feel for me, I am a fragile broken thing." I used to cry when people offered me piteous looks and comforting words.

But now I know that it has happened for a reason, and that everyone's presence in my life is for one reason only: it is in His plan. So I no longer feel sadness engulf me when I tell people that my mom has passed. As they hug me, comfort me, encourage me, all I feel now is the unwavering love from my Father, and everyone's concern for me as a sister in this community.

It's a wonderful feeling.

"'Cause I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up
On what I know I'm capable of
Yeah there's nothing left to prove
'Cause I'm just trying to be a better version of me for you

You never cease to supply me
With what I need for a good life
So when I'm down I'll hold my head up high
'Cause you're the reason why
You're why I'm on the up and up."

---Relient K, "Up And Up"

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

I'd rather forget and not slow down...

...than gather regret for the things I can't change now.

The above is a lyric by Relient K and I can't express how much their music has spoken to me since years ago.

And it speaks to me more than ever now, as the words wash over my senses and bring a feeling of peace to my once-troubled mind.

Lately I've made a life-changing decision, and it feels like the best thing that ever happened to me since my mom left me here alone in this vast world. I have my family and friends, of course, but to me, a mother's love can never be replicated.

Hence, I haven't been able to feel happy from within since February. On the surface level I can be pretty lame and loud as usual, and I do feel great when I'm hanging out with friends or just eating dinner with my cousins, but I know that once I'm at home in my room, I'd feel alone again.

It's all different now.

Instead of despairing that no one else will love me the way my mother did, I feel hope.
I feel hope in life, in love, in laughter.
Instead of pining over wasted days with my mom, I feel calm.
I feel calm because I know she is in a better place now, and I accept that.
Instead of getting mad at my dad for being him, I feel forgiveness.
I forgive him because he is just as lost as I was.

Revisiting old Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and Relient K songs makes me realize how much they've influenced my way of thinking all this time. I don't know how different (or not different) my life would be without them, but I thank God for their existence. It'd be cool if you want to give them a listen, to see if you can understand why I can't stop raving about them, but I'm gonna stop pushing them to you because they deserve a sincerely eager audience.

Hit me up for song recommendations if you dare! (I have way too many.)